HOW SOON WE FORGET, GOD DOESN'T!!!!!

A FEW WEEKS AGO I FOUND MYSELF GOING THROUGH THE PAGES OF AN OLD NOTEBOOK THAT I HAD. AMAZINGLY THE FIRST PAGE THAT I COME ACROSS WAS VERY ASTOUNDING AND EVEN SURPRISING. THE TITLE SIMPLY READ "GOD SAID GIVE ME A SPECIFIC REQUEST." AS I READ THAT TITLE MY MIND IMMEDIATELY WENT BACK TO THE DAY THAT I WROTE IT. SUDDENLY IT WAS AS CLEAR TO ME AS THE DAY I WROTE IT.

IT WAS AROUND EARLY SPRING, LATE WINTER OF 2009. IF YOU ARE NOT FAMILIAR WITH MY STORY THEN YOU WOULD NOT BE AWARE OF THE CIRCUMSTANCES THAT SURROUNDED THAT TIME FRAME. IN SHORT I HAD JUST RETURNED TO BLOOMINGTON/NORMAL AFTER SPENDING 5MONTHS IN ST. LOUIS AND CHICAGO HOSPITALS AT THE BEDSIDE OF MY DEATHLY ILL FIRST BORN SON. HE PASSED IN SEPTEMBER 2008. THIS TRIAL DEFINITELY TOOK A HEAVE TOLL ON MY MIND, MY FINANCES, MY HOPE, AND ANYTHING ELSE THAT YOU CAN THINK OF THAT COULD BE EFFECTED. I WAS UNEMPLOYED AND LOOKING FOR EMPLOYMENT WITHOUT MUCH SUCCESS. BILLS WERE STACKING UP. MY HEART WAS SICK FROM HOPE BEING DEFERRED. MY MIND WAS PERPLEXED BECAUSE I COULDN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT I WAS GOING THROUGH. I FELT LIKE GOD WHY DON'T YOU HEAR ME? WHY WON'T YOU ANSWER ME? WHY WON'T YOU ANSWER ANY OF MY REQUEST.

SO THAT DAY I MAKE MY WAY DOWN TO THE CHURCH AND AS I'M WALKING TO THE DOOR GOD BEGINS TO SPEAK TO MY MIND. SOMETHING SAID YOU NEED TO WRITE THIS DOWN. SO HERE IS WHAT I WROTE ON THAT DAY EARLY IN 2009.

"GOD SAID GIVE ME A SPECIFIC REQUEST. MY FIRST RESPONSE WAS I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO ASK? WHAT SHOULD I ASK? I'VE BEEN CONSISTENTLY ASKING FOR A LOT OF THINGS. WHAT DO YOU MEAN GIVE ME A SPECIFIC REQUEST?" GOD'S RESPONSE TO ME WAS: "YOU'VE BEEN ASKING ALL OF THESE GENERAL REQUEST. BUT I SAID GIVE ME A SPECIFIC REQUEST. HERE'S WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT. YOU ASK, GOD I WANT ANOTHER BABY, GOD BLESS ME WITH A JOB, GOD HELP ME TO HAVE THE RESOURCES TO FINISH MY RECORD. A SPECIFIC REQUEST WOULD BE AS FOLLOWS: GOD LET CORA CONCEIVE BY AUGUST AND LET US HAVE A BABY GIRL BY NEXT SPRING. GOD BLESS ME WITH A BASS PLAYER, AND DRUMMER WHO WILL HELP ME COMPLETE MY RECORD WITHOUT ROBBING ME."

I HAD FORGOT ABOUT THIS CONVERSATION BUT THERE IS A REASON THAT I WROTE IT DOWN. MY WIFE CONCEIVED IN JUNE/JULY OF 2009. WE HAD A HEALTHY BABY BOY ON MARCH. 29, 2010. BETWEEN THE MONTHS OF OCT. 2009 AND FEBRUARY 2010 GOD PROVIDED ME WITH EVERY RESOURCE THAT I NEEDED TO FINISH THE RECORDING PROCESS IN REGARDS TO MUSIC AND VOCALS.

HOW SOON WE FORGET BUT I'M GLAD THAT GOD DOESN'T. HE KNEW WHAT HE WAS GOING TO DO AFTER HE CHALLENGED ME TO TRUST HIM. ALL I HAD TO DO WAS RESPOND TO THE CHALLENGE. HE SENT HIS WORD AND IT HEALED ME. I WOULD LIKE TO LEAVE YOU WITH A CHALLENGE AS WELL.

YE HAVE NOT BECAUSE YOU ASK NOT. FOR IF YOU ASK YE SHALL RECEIVE, IF YOU SEEK THEN YOU WILL FIND, AND IF YOU KNOW THEN THE DOOR WILL BE OPENED.

GOD'S WORD WILL NOT RETURN TO HIM VOID. IF HE SAID IT IT WILL COME TO PASS. I CHALLENGE YOU ASK GOD FOR SOMETHING SPECIFIC AND THEN WATCH FOR IT TO COME TO PASS. BUT I'M A WITNESS THAT EVEN IF YOU FORGET GOD WILL REMEMBER.